Saturday, November 30, 2013

As a Little Child

I have a confession.  This is a topic that took me a great deal of time to learn, which is much to my discredit as the Lord discusses it repeatedly.  Becoming as a child seemed a step backward for me most of my life and as the youngest of four I generally wished to be older and more capable like my siblings rather than infantile as they sometimes viewed me.  And in this world we often measure success by education, promotions, and the like.  Often we scoff at becoming innocent and submissive as a child.

And yet, are we not all children?  In the great economy of heaven, do we really know much of anything?  Can we provide for ourselves without the care of the Almighty?  Not at all.  As a business executive I can readily see that the Lord leads clients to our doors and it is according to His will and not what I say or do that can make or break a contract.  Even in financial success, we can be plagued by devastating medical bills or  personal loss.  As powerful as we may think we are, the Lord truly holds all the cards in every aspect of our lives.  So doesn't it make sense to accept the fact that we are as but children in His stewardship?  Doesn't it make logical sense to accept the fact that we cannot do it alone and cling to our mighty Father who can protect and care for all our needs?

I am grateful for a rather extreme illness that I have had for quite some time.  I have had post traumatic stress for years, and through the extreme pain and overwhelming, near fatal trauma I have learned that there is no shame in being the daughter of a living God.  I have had to depend on Him for everything from preserving my life and sanity to rebuilding every aspect of my existence.  There is no shame in recognizing that we cannot do it on our own and allowing His hand to shape and bless our lives in a manner more powerful than we could have accomplished alone.  And thus, when we are weak, then are we strong.